i’d love to be in paris today
so. as much as i feel it necessary to express my insanity i also feel that i must report my return trip. things last week were pretty bad. it all kinda started Wednesday and progressively got worse. Thursday and Friday i cried embarrassingly but uncontrollably at work. come Friday afternoon i called my shrink and went in for an emergency visit. he didn’t know what to say to me either. he let me know which doctor was on call at the hospital this weekend. i was sincerely planning to move in there but things have come around. and thank goodness too. oddly enough, when i was sort of feeling like the lowest of the low i went to our student art exhibition at Rodman Hall. i had my “design for a new tomorrow
” photographs in the show. as it turns out i also won first place.
holy crap. i was surprised…. i guess i still am actually. it’s hard to feel like a piece of shit when people have lovely things to say about you. it wasn’t a cure that’s for sure but it certainly helped me to come to where i am at this moment – a normal, non-crying, fairly emotionally stable, self-confident woman. what more could i want? (well, i’d love to be in paris today).
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